i'm not going to delete this journal because it is a big part of my life.

but

victory_atcost has been deleted.

:D

yeehaw.

&get me @ playhard_

;)

&outie.

there's a new journal in the shizhouse.

everyone add victory_atcost to their friend's list. this'll be gone gone, bye bye.

-victoria_atocst.

kadios!

omg omg omg

i take the new SAT on MARCH 12 @ CORONADO!

IVE GOT TO GO STUDY

kthnksbi! -vikki

like 6 sirens have passed by my house in the past 3 minutes. it's scary&i'm too lazy to get up and look outside. :P hahaha.

i worked today &yesterday.
yesterday was my mum's birthday&we went to cattleman's &to see in good company (good movie) on saturday.
today i worked, went to practice for an hour before tho. all we did was run. run run run. :P boo. work was buys (we were at least busy)... stopped @rue21, claire's, &sally's to get hair bleach. yeehaw.
goin' to do my hair tonight &thennn homework. which i don't even know what to do. ohhh well. i usually do homework from last class in class the day it's due. it's because i have no idea what the heck is going on so ineed help. but i should start it at least. ergh.
;D

tear me open at the seems.. take everything you need.. ;)
take my heart if you like the beat...

why am i still picturing myself with him? why can't i get him out of my head?
only a few know how much i'm still waiting, still breathing for that one day
when that stupid, silly dream'll come true.

listenin to: Cauterize/Still Breathing

thank you to everyone! for wishin' me a happy bday! :)

it was great, grand, awesome. :D

we ate @ p.f.changs for dinner with the family. i got serenaded in mr. antwine's class. i got sung by everyone in the morning. dind't go to wrestling (thats a plus, haha) got my license renewed anddddddddddddd got some stuff at pier 1!

my grandparents got me a softball bag with my name on it! yeeehaw! &we are going to go shopping for a softball bat! yea-uh.

:D i can't wait for this weekend.

out with the girls (and guys) and maybe hittin' up that sexy sexy freshman. (dude, i can't believe he's a freshman! hahahaha)

dude. i can't stop saying that.

alot of things are goin' good! &i don't want them to end. you have no idea!

"man today is just your day," said miquela. &then it hit me! IT'LL END! AHHH.

nooooooooooooooo

dude.

my vibe's name is Pheobe. &it's pretty.

[I had a better entry than this bt my computer is FUCKED up.]

Back to school tomorrow guys. A new semster; yay! One more chance for me to stress and do horrible in my classes. I'm so excited.

Not really. What I am really excited about is... no, not my birthday (which is in 9 days, btw) buuuuuuuuuut that... THIS



MAY BE MY NEXT KEIFFER. OMGOMG

Let's not get too ahead of ourselves but dude. Can't you not just help but get excited? Or is it just me? :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

But then again... There is science fair to be thinking about. Which I am almost done with. Ooo. Reminds me. I need to go to Walmart.

BYE!

feelin': anxious
listenin to: The Used/I'm A Fake

Oh, I forgot.

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 10 DAYS!

YESYESYESYES.

listenin to: Head Automatica - Decadence - The Razor

My toe feels funny. It's like tingling but it hurts. :(

We had softball "practice" today but only 4 of us came. &1 of the girls was from Monique's team. So ya. It was technically 3 Americas girls. BOO. EVERYONE SUCKS. I'm not looking forward to the season, really. It doesn't seem like anyone is dedicated.

:D Ok. Uh. Ya.


( 2004 Survey )

feelin': restless
listenin to: The Used/I'm A Fake

I had a black Blast! yesterday. THANKS GUYS.

:D


MUAHAHA. It wasn't fun cleanign but we got that done nicely, too. Anyway. My dad was being an ass though. :P

UHhhh. I just went running (New YEars Resolution: Not to be lazy) Haha.

EH. BEY

argh. now i have no plans for tonight. gee, thanks. i got dragged to the westside. i had to go just so icould sit on the couch, read, not eat the food they have (i took alex to get wendy's tho) because it's... yuvky (liver, dumbo and some weird chicken salad) and try to pick out words in spanish. nice, fun. ya.

and then i get home and miquela is being all radical. yup i needed that thanks.

at least i made torrejas and i could snarf on those. :P



( surrrrevvvvvyyyy )

request: a song about the new year!

heres on!

death cab for cutie
the new year

so this is the new year.
and i don't feel any different.
the clanking of crystal
explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

so this is the new year
and I have no resolutions
for self assigned penance
for problems with easy solutions

so everybody put your best suit or dress on
let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
as thirty dialogues bleed into one

i wish the world was flat like the old days
then i could travel just by folding a map
no more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
there'd be no distance that can hold us back.

you never know what kind of a person someone is until it's over.

and they leave scary messages on your voice mail.

blegh.

dui, dui.

i'm so nervous. i can't breath. i'm goin' nuts. i'm panicking. i'm sweating. my fingers aren't working riiiiiiight. my nerves are shot. GSKJFH()*HSFDkdfs.

why?

i'm going with vickie right now, RIGHT NOW, right now to go give Shaun back his stuff! (blwoing ball, shirt, shoes and hat)

i c-c-c-cccccan't breaaaaaaaaaathe. what a day, what a day.

i'm gaining an ex. and i'm going to go see an ex. well, i'm not going to go see him i'm mor like goin' to go get shunned by him as i throw his shit out the truck window. JUST KIDDING. ahhh.

and i'm going to go test drive the jeep liberties. this is a unyeehaw.

it's almost the new years, guys. and who will you be kissing at midnight? so many new things to look forward to- a new car (or is that just me? just kidding), a chance to make a new year start off right, a chance to kiss someone (who needs that?!) and chance to just shake off the bad habits and make a new resolution (but who really keeps them?) well, start thinking cause you've only got 2 days to come up with a resolution that'll change your life, world and ways. let's stick to it!

next thursday the varsity girls wrestling team goes off to caprock. yay! it's goin' to be fun since we can kick ass. today coach picked me and miquela out of everyone. oh boy, i hate that. i think the coaches have too much faith in me since miquela can ritously kick my ass. ooops.

and my always necessary yeehaw,
i'm out.

there all these songs about being hurt
but what about something-
the other side of the story,
the other side of the fault.
cause i'll be the one sayin' sorry.

i'll keep lookin' at the phone,
waiting for it to ring-
did you know you were callin' me?
cause if i were you'd hang up..
i'm sorry i ever heard you sing.

i'll be sayin' sorry
you'll be askin' why,
i can't give you an answer
other that a little white lie
when the truth is...
you were just a bit too much.
too nice, too rough, to pushy, to tough..
i'm not goin to be the one
compromisin', devisin'
a way to hang on when you're
just hangin' on to something-
me, you weren't the somethin',
i wasn't much of anything,
you're in too deep,
and i'm wading out too deep
for you to rescue.

feelin': it's over!
listenin to: spill canvas/all hail the heartbreacker

I hate not having a car. I want to go to B&N, deposit a paycheck and $100. ARGH.

I hurt everywhere. HAving a week off from wrestling was nice. Coach wants me definately at 121. WOOHOO. 4 pounds.

Awwwww. My friend Jess is like <3in' her new b/f. Que cute.

I saw Meet the Fockers last night with Edison, Becky and my brother. It was fun. WE went crazy on the way home with doughnuts (THANKS AUDREY!) They were all "You are going to buy doughnuts just to talk to Audrey for like 30 seconds?" and I'm like "HELL YA." Hahahaha. Yeeehaw.

Uh. Yeehaw?

I am not talking to my dad. He's an asshole.

My car blew up. Not really (I wish) then there would be no car to be yelling about. But anyway. A headgasket blew and my dad swears the only way it could've blown is if it were being driving while it was over heated. MIND YOU, the past 3 experiences of my car nearly blowing up cause it was being driving while over heating has made me quite the cautious person &I watch the temperature gauge like nobody. so there is no way it wouldve' been over heating while i was driving but he still blames me. and then he locks himself out of my car with the spare set of keys (while the car is still on) and i had my entry key in the glove box cause i used to to carry instead of the whole shitload of keys ono the rest of the keychain (went to foam party last night, had to put things in my pocket to carry - tada) and so when he realizes he can't get into the car with the remote entry he starts yelling at me again.. HELLO?! who locked himself in my car?! I haven't even done that once (yet!). ASSHOLE.

ARHGKFDH()WUJLKD. So i'm eating breakfast and still comes into the kitchen to yell and say the same things over in about 5 minutes. "that's it! You have no more car. i'm not goin' to fix it" and such and such. i swear he repeated that damned phrqase about 80 times in a matter of 4 minutes. I'm not deaf, and i got the point when you yelled it at me as my wake up call. THANKS.

FUCK YOU. I DONT WANT TO GO TO PRACTICE, EITHER.

MERRY XMAS all. :D

yeehaw.

we gots to open one present last night (tradition) and i opened the dodgeball movie. so i watched it last nght. i love that movie. ben stiller in that movie reminds me of edison. not really, just because edison can do a good zoolander impression.

last night we did the Cuban thing. YUM YUM. delicious food. i love my family. :D my aunt is hilarious. we played Fact-or-Crap (game Miquela got us) and that was hilarious. Edison was the first to lossssssse! HAHAHA. I tied for 2nd.

:D

we opened presents already. i got some neat-o stuff. giftcards to barnes*noble, forever21, anchorblue and some money. lots of abercrombie sweaters/shirts, jacket, a cool necklace, my grandma gave her traditional christmas socks and a purse with the letter "v" since we can never find one (she had to find in denver) anddddddddd....... 2 piggie banks! they are awesome! :D i collect piggie banks, btw. one of them is pink and has a hat on and says "vacation money" and the other is all painted jungle like. i love 'em! yee haw. oh, and a.sims 2. whcih i'm installing right now. MUAHAHA.

we are going to go see spanglish at the movies.
and

check this out, suckas tomorrow i'm going to rudolph chevrolet to go check out the CHEVY TRAILBLAZERS omgomgomgomgomgomgomgggggg!

I LOVE IT.
&YOU.

listenin to: Sweet sweet sound of computer overhaulin'

wow. another 9 11 hour day. :)

what's up? miquela is poking me. make her stop.

lala. my aunt is coming today. i bet she's already here but i have to wait for my mother to return from getting her nails done. she got high today. :P hahaha.

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. 4 days till xmas. omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg.

eric made me cry yesterday.

boooo.

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. uh uh uh uh. uh.

I'm sooooo tired. And stuffed. And Fat. And I can't wait for Christmas. I don't want it to leave though. I love this time of year.

We just picked up/went to dinner with my grandparents from Miami. Ms. Blough was at the same restaurant. Damnit I run into her everywhere. Her and Ms. Walker. :P Haha.

Work was super busy and tomorrow it is going to be worse.

YAY.

Thursday I go to Las Cruces. Friday is the Cuban thing. Saturday is CHRISTMAS! Sunday is the foam party. And ya.